All I want is for some good news. I’m not sure if I can mentally handle anymore bad news.
For anyone who doesn’t know me, in the past 5 months I have lost my flat, a friend has died, lost my job and another friend has suddenly passed away. Losing my flat was bad but I went back to my mums hoping to move back out now. Within a few days of returning home I came home to the news that a good friend had been killed after a train hit him.
Over the course of the next couple of months everything was looking good and I was happy. January came and I had to reapply for my job role. 2 weeks later the gutting news that I hadn’t been successful was delivered and I found myself in a situation where I would be unemployed. I worked hard to secure myself a new job whilst going through shit after finding out that my manager had nothing but negative things to say behind my back but was nice as pie to my face. I was very lucky to secure myself a new job and left within 3 weeks of finding out I’d be unemployed.
I started my new job a little bit strained due to the nature of my previous job role and how I had to leave. 4 days in to my new role I was told that a very good friend of mine had suddenly passed away aged 23 from a suspected stroke. That was 3 weeks ago and we still have no answers on her death. I’m struggling to come to terms with everything and find myself lying awake until god knows what time worrying about everything.
I can’t remember the last time I had a decent nights sleep nor when I didn’t have a headache from stress. All I want to do is cry because I feel angry and upset from everything.
I keep finding myself getting anxious about little things such as someone walking too slowly and I’m stuck behind them. I really could do with a relaxing break somewhere.
Me on the 1st March 2014 14 stone 4 pound.
Me on the 4th August 2013 at least 16 stone 8.5 pounds!
I’ve worked incredibly hard at this but hard work sure pays off :) ♡
I don’t care
When someone tells me a pointless story and all I can react with is
When I see someone hot
When I attempt to encourage someone but I don’t care
Where I just clearly don’t care
When I hear something or see something that shocks me and all I can do is laugh
Getting super skinny me ;)
Hi my name is Emma and 5 months ago I began a journey. Here we are today, 2 stone lighter :)
Fucks sake. I want my own house again and quick. This is driving me fucking mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah, I’d love to tell you all my problems, I’m not from New York city I’m from rovrum, so get off the bandwagon
When you go from texting someone almost every day to not at all, it feels so strange.
Lol’in and I love Leo
Been dating a pretty nice guy, he was a bit clingy, wanting me to hold his hand and kiss him all the time. I was being very cautious because i dont want to get hurt. Then he decides that we’ll be better off as friends because MY feelings are stronger and he doesn’t want to lead me on. Sorry not sorry, that’s absolute bullshit and it was definitely the opposite way round. Who calls someone to check up on them because they’re worried about someone to then say that :’)
So, onwards and upwards, because I ain’t got time for that!! :)